This morning I pondered on why my last relationship failed. I couldn’t just understand why God could not just change him and make him the perfect man. I badly wanted this to be my last and final relationship; I gave more than I should have given just to ensure that this worked. I had too many questions but God spoke: "YOU WILL NEVER FIND REST IF YOU ARE IN THE WRONG PLACE".
This answer settled it for me. On the way to the promise land, the children of Israel could have decided to settle down in the wilderness because they were tired of moving and traveling endlessly but surely they would not have expected God to convert the wilderness into the promise land. The same happened to me. Because I was tired of being single, I just wanted God to make my wilderness become my promise land. Unless you get to the promise land, you can never find true bliss. This is generally our experience as humans. We get tired of waiting, we get tired of being patient then we settle for less and expect God to give us full joy and peace.
YOU CANNOT HAVE THE PROMISE LAND EXPERIENCE IN THE WILDERNESS
I learnt how to trust God the hard way. He called me out of a defective relationship and even in my loneliness I can say boldly that I am having a feel of what the promise land will look like. He has good thoughts towards us to give us a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11)